In the Booth with Ruth
I have been incredibly lucky to have some strong female influences in my life – growing up my maternal grandmother was the true matriarch, the definitive heart of a huge family, strong, stubborn, and kind. Then there was my Aunty P – another tenacious, independent woman, who loved to create gift cards and spent many a happy afternoon mooching around craft fairs with me.
I started writing as a way through the process. Of navigating what was happening. It started off as a blog. Then it just grew. People started having an active interest in it. The writing. The experience. I kept going. I didn't know it was going to be a book when I started. I was just writing as a way to get through.
From my early teens I have written diaries documenting these struggles: my thoughts, feelings, dreams, desires and innermost emotions are expressed through periods of bullying, dieting, drinking too much, heartache, chasing the wrong things in life, the wrong men, living in different counties, and ultimately searching for my peace and, of course, true love and balance.
'Inside Job' is built on your capability to work on the way you think, act and behave. Your beliefs about who you are determine your behaviour. The way we think, our attitude and mindset toward ourselves is an ’inside job’. Discovering your own identity and purpose is paramount to achieving extraordinary shifts in the way you live, develop and advance.
I try to take the Jonathan Richman approach of always writing the truth of whatever I’m feeling or observing at the time... My songs are usually about love, heartache or trying to understand the way I or other people around me act. It’s kind of a diary way of writing, so there is a lot of whinging in there too, as you would expect in any diary!
I'm highly motivated by a desire to try to help stop the global catastrophe that is all around us, caused by rampant greed, environmental destruction and war, so a lot of my songs in the past have been protest songs. But actually the solo album I've been working on lately is all songs about love, loss and human relationships of one sort or another...